Tired......Emo

Hi guys and gals!!!!!

this few days were interesting but still the same old routine , you wake up early , bath , prepare urself fer school , and you reach school and start saying all same words everyday , "HI!!!!!!,GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!!" than you would move on and sing the same old thing everyday and start ur lesson , as time passes , your energy level will start to drop and by the time it reach recess , you would be at abt 60% , and everyone will replenish their energy in different ways and the most common one would be eating , most unusual one , playing sports to regain some energy. Anyway , sometimes I just feel that wat if I was a drop out , wat will my life be like? Will I be like one of thoise ah bengs?loiter around everyday? Doing nthing but wasting our life away? Depending on our parents for the rest of our lives? Or would I be able to start a buisness and have a success? which most probably wont happen as many people in the world tries that everyday , and most of them would just fail badly and causing themself to be in debts. I mean with just those thoughts of causing my parents to suffer and wasting my limited time in this world away , will spur me on to go to greater heights.
Anyway , I felt that I might have always put on a smile with me , and ppl will always view me as a optimistic who always crack jokes . But sometimes when I am alone , I just feel lonely and a sudden change in my mood. especially during the nite , when I am in my room , trap in darkness , with only the sound of the radio accompanying me . I would always be in deep thoughts thinking abt some stuff that teenagers shuldnt be thinking about. I will always think abt death most of the times , My mind just wanders off and start to think about wat happen afters death , will this be the end or just a new start? or all we left behind would be just our ashes and we would be just gone , dissapear into thin air , there is no heaven hell or watsoever , when a human dies all that left is just emptiness . Sometimes I also thinks about how would I cope if any of my love ones suddenly just collapse and pass away , sometimes at this point I would really suffer a breakdown and cry , Just by imagining the sight of it , I am afraid I am really afraid that one day I will have to face it , as for now I would have to cherish till that day come...

ANYWAY. enough of emoing I stumbled upon a great site with lotsa great story by this blogger , a singaporean , the love story are just great!!!
http://anntonii.blogspot.com

Anyway , can anyone tell me how to improve my Elementary maths? I just feel that my maths is damn weak and I gotta improve it anyone got good tution with great prices that I can join? Or anyone willing to help me????

Tml, got a SS test!!So i am off to study fer it so goodbye fer now




“The darken clouds filled the lovely sky,

Thoughts of you ran across my mind..

As the wind began its mighty blow,

Senses of sadness felt across my soul..

Water descends the distance ground,

Behind my window I heard the sound,

Night came as I sat by my warming crouch,

Knowing that a rainfall brings out drought,

As I close my eyes and force myself to sleep,

Images of you flashes within deep.

Though the rain had washed my tears for you,

it will never remove any love I feel.”