Revolution.......Memories

Hate my life

2008-10-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

My life is ****ed seriously , even though I am only 16 , sometimes I just feel like ending it all , and just jump down frm my flat , freed of any responsibility .

Today , I did not went for this physics remedial , the problem is , the teacher din even inform us the time , and she expect us to be there , only 5 out of 10 attended it , furthermore, the five of them also din know the time , they just waited there like retards , frm 8 to 10 , and the remedial started at 10 . She called my parents , and I wasnt at home (outside studying) and I dunno wat crap did she told them and my mum was fuming . when I got home .

My parents confronted me . telling me that the teacher told them that I did not hand in my work or did not do my work , I was like WTF? I am the only one in that class of 10 who hand in the past yr examination papers she gave, voluntarily and she had the cheek to say I dint do my work? My female friend who also did not attend due to the same reason also got a call from her , and she told her parents that she did not do well for the test we did last Friday, which was totally crazy , she did not even attend school last Friday, how could she even did a test?!

The thing I hate most is that , my mum confronted me , and said wat she suspect me along time ago , and say wat I turn bad?! . Ya right , she din even trusted me from the start , she thinks I am hanging out with some bad company outside , when I am actually working hard studying outside with my friends . I really feel like this isnt the house I use to have anymore , this is crap , totally crap. She trust the words of an outsider more than the words of mine. This home isnt my home anymore , its more like a place where I eat and sleep , it holds no meaning anymore for me. I am starting to hate it , I am returning home late everyday , studying outside as an excuse to stay away from this place.

I just hate this crap.

Issit my fault for things to turn out like this??? , I dun really understand , I really dunno wat to do any more .

PS: my teacher is a old hag who dun even have a partner at her age

Tired......Emo

2008-07-02T06:09:00.000-07:00

Hi guys and gals!!!!!

this few days were interesting but still the same old routine , you wake up early , bath , prepare urself fer school , and you reach school and start saying all same words everyday , "HI!!!!!!,GOOD MORNING!!!!!!!!" than you would move on and sing the same old thing everyday and start ur lesson , as time passes , your energy level will start to drop and by the time it reach recess , you would be at abt 60% , and everyone will replenish their energy in different ways and the most common one would be eating , most unusual one , playing sports to regain some energy. Anyway , sometimes I just feel that wat if I was a drop out , wat will my life be like? Will I be like one of thoise ah bengs?loiter around everyday? Doing nthing but wasting our life away? Depending on our parents for the rest of our lives? Or would I be able to start a buisness and have a success? which most probably wont happen as many people in the world tries that everyday , and most of them would just fail badly and causing themself to be in debts. I mean with just those thoughts of causing my parents to suffer and wasting my limited time in this world away , will spur me on to go to greater heights.
Anyway , I felt that I might have always put on a smile with me , and ppl will always view me as a optimistic who always crack jokes . But sometimes when I am alone , I just feel lonely and a sudden change in my mood. especially during the nite , when I am in my room , trap in darkness , with only the sound of the radio accompanying me . I would always be in deep thoughts thinking abt some stuff that teenagers shuldnt be thinking about. I will always think abt death most of the times , My mind just wanders off and start to think about wat happen afters death , will this be the end or just a new start? or all we left behind would be just our ashes and we would be just gone , dissapear into thin air , there is no heaven hell or watsoever , when a human dies all that left is just emptiness . Sometimes I also thinks about how would I cope if any of my love ones suddenly just collapse and pass away , sometimes at this point I would really suffer a breakdown and cry , Just by imagining the sight of it , I am afraid I am really afraid that one day I will have to face it , as for now I would have to cherish till that day come...

ANYWAY. enough of emoing I stumbled upon a great site with lotsa great story by this blogger , a singaporean , the love story are just great!!!
http://anntonii.blogspot.com

Anyway , can anyone tell me how to improve my Elementary maths? I just feel that my maths is damn weak and I gotta improve it anyone got good tution with great prices that I can join? Or anyone willing to help me????

Tml, got a SS test!!So i am off to study fer it so goodbye fer now

“The darken clouds filled the lovely sky,

Thoughts of you ran across my mind..

As the wind began its mighty blow,

Senses of sadness felt across my soul..

Water descends the distance ground,

Behind my window I heard the sound,

Night came as I sat by my warming crouch,

Knowing that a rainfall brings out drought,

As I close my eyes and force myself to sleep,

Images of you flashes within deep.

Though the rain had washed my tears for you,

it will never remove any love I feel.”

photos

2008-06-30T07:42:00.000-07:00

SORRY ABOUT LAST POST , GOT MISTAKE , THE VIDEO IS MADE BY LITING SO KUDOS TO HER AND NOT THE SEC 3 =p

ALBUM HERE
http://s42.photobucket.com/albums/e321/stevenliew/Npcc%20ROD/?start=40

Npcc ROD 2008.........

2008-06-28T06:18:00.000-07:00

Friday , 27th June .....

It was the ROD for Npcc sec 4 cadet , it was pretty sad for everyone ,after 4 yrs of joy and fun and of course the torture we suffered together ......this memories will never leave me till the day I die , Everyone had a decent amount of fun , there was this great videos made by the sec 3 , and not to mention their performance (although it was horrible) ,Anyway I would really like to thank the sec 3 for their efforts to put together this show and we really appreciated it , and congrats to you guys and good luck in Npcc ,Hope you guys would do a better job than us.

To my fellow friends and squadmates,
It had been enjoyable being in the same squad as you guys , I could still remember the very first first time we met each other , everyone didnt know what did the command meant , everyone was just busy talking to each other showing no sense of urgency , having lotsa fun during those days in sec 1 , oh boy how I miss those days , As days in Npcc went by I got to know more friends , frm the initial jun guan and jau who were originally my classmates , I got to know wee kiat , keith , renjie , nizam , shafiq , derrick , tingjun and many more forgive me if I did not mention ur name . By the time we reached sec 2 , life in Npcc was starting to haunt us , the tiring training , the pumping tat cause s our arms to sore and our palm to sweat , We had to work as a squad to overcome those obstacle , helping one another , never leave behind anyone this was the lesson learnt thruout our npcc lives. The First Atc camp we attend duiring sec 2 was memorable , I could still remember everyone was energetic during our walk towards the camp shouting at one another to catch up . When we were on our way back , Everyone was encouraging one another to move on . Remember the Ice kachiang tat encourage us to keep on going??? Remember the amt of saliva Jun guan had when he was sleeping???The moment you hit bed when you reach home after the camp , it was memorable.

When we were in sec 3 , everyone was looking forward being a NCO , being able to lead the squad , but we had to earn it. It was tough but we managed it in the end , The first task and obstacle we had to overcome was a PT led by our beloved Mr lim jun sheng , the PT was to build up our team bonding . We had to jog around teckwhye , the best part of it?We had to carry someone on the strecher for half of the journey back , unfortunately the person was me. Although I wasnt able to be carrying and putting in an effort , I could hear the voices shouting cheering one another on , I cheered them on too , cmon guys cmon! When we were back at school , the whole squad was totally different , we gave it all , everyone looked lertargic and tired , however tat did not wiped away the smiles on our face , we were smiling laughing happily , we suceeded we overcame the obstacle. During sec 3 we had our second ATC camp , It was totally different , we had to overcame more obstacle , the tunnel was unforgettable , it was pitch black inside the tunnel , shafiq , nizam , jau and I was inside , the tunnel had water in it , we had to find our way thru by using our sense of touch , not forgetting to mention the occasional of touching someones ass accidentally , at the end of the tunnel it was an uphill , due to the wet condition , we were stuck as I wore a shoe with rubber soles thus it was wet and I couldnt climb out , we work together as a team , some push me frm behind and others pull me forward to get me out , Idid my part too , forcing my self forward , we did not gave up even though we failed after a few tries and we fionally suceeded . Oh boy those times were amazing . this time round , on our way back , we were not that tired and we were cheering all the way , everyone was together even more bonded than b4 , even though we were tired , we were still cracking jokes and having fun all the way back to lot 1.

Sec 4 , was our last yr in NPCC , it was memorable , not because tat we could shout at cadets and scold them . It was because of the time we spent together , for the first time in our NPCC life we were able to run a camp by ourselve , of course we were excited , everyone tot it was gonna be fun , in the end , we finally got a taste of what hell was like. On the first day of the camp , we had this ceremony , and derrick had to went out and recieved his drill badge if I am not wrong , I was beside miss chew helping to give out the prizes and miss chew told me something that I would never forget , "psss, GO tell derrick THAT HE FORGOT TO ZIP UP HIS PANTS " Oh boy , I would never forget that moment I heard that , I almost burst into laughter . On the first night of the camp , we were relived of doing our night duty as the CIs wanted to gave us a good rest after a long day ( which was a lie obviously) , At about 3 am in the mrning , all the sec 4 had to gather and fall in at the pitch , we were still quite sleepy at that point of time , the boys went out to fall in first , the girls was slower than us and we had to stay in pumping(push ups) position until they were there , most of us were having a hard time , and the girls finally arrived to save us. They conducted a bag check and most of us brought along some stuff that wasnt meant to be there , thus we were punished , we had a uniform changing drill, we were asked to change frm our uniform to pt kits and pt kits to uniform again and again until we reached the timing that we were expected to achieve. thinking back now , it was quite fun though , everybody rushing , telling each other to be faster . On the noon of the second day week kiat and I were treated to a packet of extra nasi lemak by miss chew (shes kind afterall) it was nice , everyone were doing wat they had to do and we were just eating nasi lemak . however , after taht nasi lemak , I almost died doing all the sai kang, becoming the sai kang warrior , I was task to wash the container for the drinks . In the end , I got myself all wet and dirty . I was so dirty tat I wanted to just leave and go home to clean myself up. On the second nite , after having the campfire , everyone went to bath as we were dirty and smelly , out of no where , Wee kiat just suddenly took off everything with no clothes on at all and started his bath while everyone was staring at him , that was a damn funny moment , everyone was so curious at hos manhood , That we tried to make him turn around , he turn around covering his *you know where* with both hand and quickly put on a towel to save himself from further embarrasement. It was funny.On the second nite , it was even worst than the first . Mr Lim decided to use his wonderful way of training to train us and build up our bonding. we had to carry logs and constantly change our teammates in the canteen , and kept doing push up. we did it all the from 4 am till 6 am at about 5.45 we had to move the logs back to the room. Everyone ran in the rain , it was great , everyone just ran together in the rain carrying the logs and running back together no one was left behind , everyone just ran on in the rain despite the field was muddy and dirty.Could never forget that moment in my life . At the end of the camp , everyone left together. It was our last camp together , everyone knew that , we gave everthing in this camp , we had joy , fun , and we overcame bostacle together , bear thru the pain together.

THANK YOU GUYS FOR EVERYTHING , I would never ever forget my times in NPCC . I might have always complain that I was being peer pressured by jun guan to join NPCC , and because of that I want to thank him , if it wasnt for him , I would not have join NPCC and have so much fun. I want to thank the detectives for making my life in npcc so much better and thank you guys for everything allowing me to have so much fun in NPCC . I would like to thank everyone in Npcc for being part of this family. Thank you all so much. I will never forget you guys.

THANK YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!
ONE FOR ALL ALL FOR ONE!!!!!!

Life just got worse

2008-04-23T03:47:00.000-07:00

Long time no see peepz.......It has since been a long time since I last Blog , had some kind of down syndrome or something..No la.....

Actually , life beens quite fun and all well for me....

But......I just cant quite stop myself to wonder , how can I study in such a enviroment ( my house) , The TV is on all the times......My mum just goes nag and nag ( THIS IS NOT CONCERN , YOUR CONCERN IS BECOMING A KIND OF BURDEN FOR ME!) , My grandma just simply sometimes , joins in with her. This SUCKS! , how am I gonna study for my O level?????

this type of environment isnt suitable at all!!!!

You want me excel in my O level???Fine I study , But now you are the one in my way , are you asking me to just shout the hell out of everyone and just leave my house and study until O level is over?????

THIS IS CRAP!

The very consistent concern shown by my mum is getting irritating and she does not realise it at all , sometimes I decides to ignore her completely and she says I am rude and does not respect her!!!

CMON , CANT YOU SEE A POOR GUY IS TRYING TO STUDY AND DO HIS WORK HERE???AND YOU ARE TRYING TO GET HIS ATTENTION FOR TRIVIAL MATTERS????WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!!!

I feel like going on and on........
But they are still my family , this is what you are born with and you cant choose.....

At least my only consolation is my dad , he reminds me to study hard at the right time right place , he encourages me and always tell me to relax abit if he see I am trying to hard...THX AND I APPRECIATE THIS KIND OF EFFORT

And now.........I am about to end off this post full of fiery and anger . ANY PEEPZ WILLING TO OFFER ME A PLACE TO STAY AND STUDY ?????

Jokes.....

2008-04-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

Coversation with a Little Girl

A stranger was seated next to a little girl on the airplaneWhen the stranger turned to her and said,
'Let's talk. I've heard that flights go quicker if you strike up a conversation with your fellow passenger.'

The little girl, who had just opened her book, closed it slowly and said to the stranger, 'What would you like to talk about?'

'Oh, I don't know,' said the stranger. 'How about nuclear power?' and he smiles.

'OK, ' she said. 'That could be an interesting topic. But let me ask you a question first. A horse, a cow, and a deer all eat the same stuff - grass. Yet a deer excretes little pellets, while a cow turns out a flat patty, and a horse produces clumps of dried grass. Why do you suppose that is?'

The stranger, visibly surprised by the little girl's intelligence, thinks about it and says, 'Hmmm, I have no idea.'

To which the little girl replies, 'Do you really feel qualified to discuss nuclear power when you don't know SH*T?'

Haha......really good joke

Anyway.sorry for not posting any thing at all for the past week......cause was really tired and busy.promise to post tml......

Revolution for today...

2008-03-31T06:37:00.000-07:00

Woo........

Tired day for me on Sunday , woke up at about 5 am to prepare to go with my maternal side family to go to pay my respect to my grandfather and grandmother , still could remember the day my grandmother move on to another world , couldn't get over it for about one week , everytime I hear the Buddha song would remind me of the funeral held when I was primary 3 or 4 Really sad day , the whole family cried as if there was no tml , I cried my hearts out , it was the first funeral I attended , and I know it wouldn't be the last , thus One day it would be me who will be send of by my frens relative and children , So lets cherish life !!!

Had a second session in the afternoon where by my paternal side went to the lim chu kang cemetery , what can I say???

It was damn hot!! I was melting in the sun , I HATE GLOBAL WARMING!IT HURTS!SO STOP POLLUTING THE EARTH!!

SAVE EARTH!!

LOL , I do sound like an environmentalist now . Anyway I return home and switched on the air con immediately to release all the hot air molecule out and take a part in polluting the earth since we are all gonna die someday!!

As for Saturday, It was a really sad day for the camp craft team man....

The boys ranking is disappointing and the girls ranking was heart - breaking for all of us , After watching such a great performance from the girls team , we were so excited everybody started imagining what it would be like to get into the finals , but upon getting the results , our hopes perish in despair , some girls from the camp craft team cried , Ironically , We were laughing and smiling some time ago and now , we are just staring into the blank space in disbelief , thus I really felt sad for both teams....

As for today , The WAR between me and AME continued , she went tag team with ZHENG JIE!!And hit on me like several times , let her off since I am such a gentleman who would not hit a girl who is so childish . And she FORCED!!!me to treat her a bottle of pink dolphin after the 2.4 KM run ....This is WAR!....

aFTER THE 2.4KM RUN , i TOOK OUT 10 BUCKS TO LEND THE OTHERS TO GET REFRESHMENT and only a staggering figure of 6.50 cents came back into my pocket and the rest went missing or they were part of the cast that produce the hit show " LOST"??? or how about a show call "Wallet break". I swear to god that I will write a IOU next time when I lend out money!!!

Signing off,
JJ Liew

Revolutions........

2008-03-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

Sorry that din have the time to post yesterday, was damn tired yesterday and after bathing and having dinner I quickly settled the homework and charge my psp and the moment I lie on to my comfy bed , the next seconds I was already in dream land...tired until like that sia...long time never do this le , just lie on the bed and sleep like a pig(I'm not one!!!).

Anyway, yesterday I was just slacking off in class as usual looking for a chance to catch some sleep , and we talk about a interesting topic during chinese lesson which is on multi tasking , after reviewing my life daily I found out that I am actually a master in multi tasking , I could actually do my homework , surf the net , chat via sms , chat via msn , playing games (both psp and comp) , listening to music , eat tidbits and watch tv at the same time . which is about doing nine items at the same time , that probably sums up why my homework is always so sloppy anyway

Actually I believe , everyone is multi tasking everyday in their life , like listening to music while reading a book or going to toliet with a newspaper or even playing a psp while travelling , this probably sums up the statistic which shows that we young people could actually do up to 4-hrs of stuff in a day with 24 hrs...

Maybe I shall use this as a reason for me being so tired everyday since I have been doing 40hrs of things everyday.......

Haha anyway..TML IS A GREAT DAY

ITS THE E - LEARNING DAY

great isn't it???
it means that we can surf the net , watch videos on youtube , listening to music and watching the tv while we " study" , I know that we will fail our O level if we do this everyday....LOL....

alright , I am preparing for tml now as we will be having another badminton session!!!!
this time round a gombak sports hall!!!
care to join us???
call me at my phone number
9296507six

Good day peepz

signing off
Steven LiewJJ

Revolution for today....

2008-03-25T05:31:00.000-07:00

Started the day off as usual , meeting with the gang and had a chat before assembly , all just sat there and talk cok, nothing serious anyway....

However the best news of the day.........SIVA wasn't here for lesson which means that we were just slacking for 2 lessons which means that 2 out of 6 lessons were wasted or rather we had fun during those times.

HEREBY I DECLARE WAR ON AME.

She hit me twice with a newspaper and laugh her way off as if as nothing had happen.Thus its war between us now.

anyway , npcc was quite plain today as nothing much happen during npcc.

As usual we went on to mac after Np AND Started our crap talk again-.-

Eventually we plan to have badminton AGAIN!? after E learning day....

This eventually make it 3 weeks in a row for us now.

I dun mind actually as we will be renewing rivalry every week.

Too tired to continue typing now.

Signing off
StevenLiewJJ

Dying to watch this movies

2008-03-24T06:35:00.001-07:00

My target is to watch Semi-Pro and Step - Up 2 by next week!!!
ZZZ

trailer for semi pro

Song of the day!!!

Step up 2 trailer

ARGH.ANYONE????

Revolution of today....

2008-03-24T04:17:00.000-07:00

Started the day quite piss off as LIVERPOOL LOST TO MAN U 3-0.......a minute of silence for all Liverpool fans..........
*1 minutes*

The first thing happen to me when I reach the school canteen was firdaus looking at me with a evil grin and as I approach him , he seems to be smiling at me in a evil manner , I knew from that moment that something bad was about to happen anyway.....Before I even said good morning to him , he immediately started laughing and saying that Liverpool lost 3-0, I was like WTF? do you have to remind me of it again??........this started of my day and It happens to end the same way as thruout the whole day everyone was telling me the same old thing as if I do not know that my team got trashed!?

Totally piss off today!!!!

Anyway...I had no time practice for today and I do not know of the reason at all and we had to complete this freaking matrices worksheet WHERE YOU ONLY HAVE TO DO THE QUESTIONS THAT ARE TICKED and the usual dumb me went to did all the question and felt like a NOOB who got duped.......

Was supposed to follow the gang to west mall today , and suddenly a change of plans made nizam , jau and I to go and have lunch at BPP KFC, and I decided to give the new crunchy bite a try and it tasted like....OMG??? It didn't took me more than a bite of it to realize that I am being cheated of my money for something that isn't even nice at all.WARNING TO ALL WHO GOING TO KFC!!TRY IT AT YOUR OWN RISK.
After the meal, Jau and I went to look at some ear phones and I bought comics before returning home.

BTW, Jau is obsessed on creating a rumour that he can spread , and he is going crazy.....maybe his new phone is the culprit??anyway it is a samsung phone which looks good but never really try it yet.

Alright, thats all for today.Currently waiting for my PSP to be charged as I just armed it with a new game today!!!

MLB 08(its baseball in case you dunno)

There is still NPCC for tml and its our last 5 weeks with NPCC before we move on.Kind of sad isn't it??Derrick is quite happy and excited about it.LOL

Signing off.
Steven Liew
Off to prepare uniform and psp!!!

Funny poem

2008-03-24T03:41:00.000-07:00

li bai's poem

(Chinese Version)

Chuang qian ming yue guang

Yi shi di shang shuang

Ju tou wang ming yue

Di tou shi gu xiang

(English Version)

The moon light is pouring down on my bedside

Like white frost spreading on the ground

I look up the bright round moon in the sky

And lower my head thinking of my dear hometown

(Singlish (Phua Chu Kang) Version)

Bedfront Moon Bright Bright

Think Is Floor White White

Lift Head See Moon Moon

Bow Head Miss Home Home...

(Ah-Beng Version)

Bedfront Orr Pi Sai (pick nose)

Think Think Go Pang Sai

Pick Up Tai Gor Tai (handphone)

BS While Lau Sai

(Latest Reservist Army Version)

Bedfront Lau Bark Sai (tears drop)

Thinking About Exercise(reservist mobilization)

Drop Dead Look Into The Sky (run until no

breathe)

Tong Kor Sia Lang Zai? (my heartache nobody knows)

(Osama version)

No friend at my side

Think think Bush will fight

Lift head but where to hide?

This time don't know when will die ?

(Bush version)

Can't sleep since that night

Think think where he hide ?

Bomb bomb friends will say I pai

No choice ask them go fly kite

Quite long ago ler.......maybe will still make some of you giggle....

New blog , New life , New revolution!!!!!!

2008-03-24T02:57:00.000-07:00

Woohoo....a new blog my frens!!!
after so many years.....so many changing of blog and hibernation from my previous blog for abt 1 plus year.........

I HEREBY DECLARED MY NEW BLOG OPEN!!!!!!

Okay I know I ma going crazy for a tad bit , but I have finally decided to put my mind down and I decided that I could use a little blog to record and share the wonderful things that are happening in my life.

Thus, feel free to tag and dun forget to link me and my new blog!!

btw,stop going back to the blog I have used in the past its on hibernation mode, or rather shut down.....so if you ever seen a post there by chance , ignore it as you can be sure that it is not me who are posting.

alright , I shall continue to modify my blog until it is perfect so thats all for now!!

TADAH!!

Signing off,
StevenLiew JJ!